Haiti

8:33

A little over a week ago, Haiti was struck by an earthquake of such magnitude. These people are so poor they don't have the money to rebuild. I had been depressed because I might have retorn my ACL, I need to bring up a grade, and my best friend is moving but watching the Hope for Haiti telethon I realize there are bigger problems than my own. How often do we need to be brought back down to earth? My heart is breaking for these people. They remain faithful, strong, hopeful when all seems lost. As humans we can take a lesson from them. We too often give up hope. We need to stay strong. My heart is breaking for them and all I want to do is go there and help. It makes me want to choose a career that can give me that option. People need to be break out of their shell and help. Please help!

There were 2 stories that touched me. The first was of love. This man 6 or 8 days after the earthquake struck, was still at the building where his wife, Janette, had been. He was adament his wife was alive. Sure enough, when firefighters found her, she was very much alive. That shows true love.

The other was a little boy named Manly was in his house with his parents when the earthquake struck. He stayed for 8 days alone in darkness and in rubble because his parents died. The little boy lives and has recieved medical care. That poor little boy!

There are so many orphans and people getting medical treatment which was used in the American Revolution using vodka as an anthestic and a drill instead of a scalpal. Help.

Help.

Help.

Please help.

Lost

7:22

i made a decision today. i thought my best friend was suicidal. she was talking so depressed, more than i had ever heard from her, so i texted her cousin who has been her long time confidant. she was shocked but asked to see the messages so i sent it to her and she said she would talk to their grandma about it. i thought whew! i had helped her. what i didn't know was the parents had been fighting and now the cousin's family wants to put her in the hospital! i didn't mean for that to happen. i thought maybe she would know what to say more than me. i feel horrible. did i do the right thing? i thought i was but now i'm not so sure. i couldn't of seen this coming, not at all. i thought my heart was in the right spot. i mean she's attempted suicide before so i thought i was preventive. maybe i shouldn't of said anything. i'm so confused!

Moments

8:04

a single choice, a single moment, can define the future.

a single fall, can change you forever.

a single opening of the mouth can make or break you.

a single choice can leave you from this earth.

make good choices.

today, my knee gave out during basketball. luckily the acl i had torn and replaced in 7th grade didn't rerip. now i'm in pain. my mother was thinking about something else and almost completely ended up in the ditch.

life is full of moments and choices that can make or break you.

be strong.

be smart.

be decisive.

use these moments for postives so in the future you won't regret.

Happy New Year!

5:09

So i'm sitting here dreading the start of school again. I wish we had 2 weeks off again. It's so nice. But i've been a writing beast. I write best under stress and when i'm emotional. Today i wrote 5 pgs and yesterday i wrote like 2 or 3. Skylars proud.

For Christmas i got my ipod that i wanted. Thank goodness, i have a wide range in music so it's nice to have a place to keep them all.

I feel like i haven't had a break because it has been basketball, basketball, basketball. We got to go to the Dells which was a fun time but that's 3 days right there (it didn't help we stayed up 'til the wee hours of the morning then had to get up in time to leave by 10:30 the next morning including eating, packing, getting ready. With 12 girls and 3 bathrooms, it's not an easy task let me tell you. It didn't help that the 1st night 2 varsity players decided to sleep in our room. I mean that totally screwed up the already tight quarters. We did have a condo that had 3 bedrooms but we still needed the pull outs.

Time flies when you are having fun though. Great memories were made there. Luckily we do that every other year. Next time we do it, we will be seniors. Our varsity won the entire tournament by the way. It topped the cake!

For new years i went and polar beared (for those that don't know it's where you jump into the lake) my mom's family started it in a lake near where we live almost 25 years ago. It's crazy but totally fun.

I love the holidays!