My Bubble

10:31

It's crazy to think the last time I updated this blog I was excited for Germany! Now I'm home and missing those people like I don't even know how to describe it. Those people are my family. They are irreplacable. It was pure joy while I was there.

Once I've came home, however, insued the drama. My dad ended up having a triple bypass. I got home on monday night, was told tuesday morning, and he went into surgery on wednesday. Talk about insane huh? I was clueless. I'm glad they didn't tell me though, as selfish as that is, because that would've truly ruined the trip. I mean my now ex best friend ending our friendship the night before I left didn't ruin that. It truly made my life. If I could hop the next plane to Germany I would. There would be no second guessing myself.

My life has been chaos. True and utter chaos. I need peace. I want to go back into that bubble I had in Germany. There was no drama. I despise drama. How do you stop following someone?

Germany!

9:50

I've come to realize its been almost a month since I've last blogged so here I am. My mom's started nursing school so I get the car four nights a week automatically. Not that I take advantage or anything. *cough cough*

I leave for Germany on Friday! I'm beyond excited. I've been waiting for months and months to go and it's almost here. This is going to be my fun times that also involves relaxing and some German culture if you know what I mean. I also can't wait to see all of my Germans! I miss them so much. Some of us are like sisters and we are going to be each others godparents of our future children. It's going to be marvelous.

Right now I've kind of gotten frustrated. I've been working like 24/7 this weekend so I'm exhausted (kitchen jobs are hard work). Plus I've just gotten frustrated in life period. I've gotten yelled at twice last night and neither for good reasons plus whenever I voice my thoughts and emotions it seems as if people get so defensive and aren't even listening. What am I to do?

That's Life

8:46

I know that life's not fair but today just proves it. I set up almost everything for my rummage sale when my sister comes out and says that we should split the profit. Tell me how that makes sense? The only thing she had done was help me bring up a table that I couldn't lift by myself. I got so angry.

I got my driver's license but all I've been doing is taking my sister place to place. Do I get a thank you? Nope. That's life.

My hopes go out to the oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico. This is why I'm against off shore drilling.

Shakespeare

4:52

I'm learning the hard way about procrastination. So I did a suck up research paper topic of the authorship of William Shakespeare. Definitely keep forgeting to work on it and almost all of our topics are due tomorrow and hmm the websites she's requiring us to use aren't working from my laptop. Lovely. Guess I'll be fibbing or being like i had everything tabbed but the website was down when I went to print them. Hate not having my homework done...

Birthdays

3:17

The month of April is an insane birthday month in our house. 3 of us are within 16 days of each other. Mine happens to be the last one and this year I'm turning sixteen! I'm so excited.

My life has gotten better along with the weather. It's interesting how my mood differs with the weather. When it's warm I'm happy. When it's cold I'm crabby. Am I the only one? Probably not.

How life changes. It's almost a year since my best friend and I became friends and how much life has changed. I've ended up in therapy, she's moved, my parents are on the brink of divorce, her's did, I re-injured my knee, and, well, there's so much to list! Truly the question is where does the time go? It seems like yesterday I started middle school and here I am about to become an upperclassman with my driver's license. It's insane!

As the schoool year is coming closer, there would definitely be some things I wish I hadn't said, some events I wish hadn't come, but this year has been a trial, and I'm only stronger because of it.

Views on the Catholic Religion

12:42

I've been adament on my refusal with the Catholic church for months, but now it's holy week and my mom told me that if I go to a friend's house on Saturday night I have to be home in time for church on Sunday. I flipped. They all of a sudden tell me that despite my personal beliefs, I'm going to be forced to go. It took my dad to come to the realization I don't believe in the Catholic church til I ate meat on Friday. Can they truly be that naive? I've only said no to the Catholic church for how long? It's not going to change overnight. My mother all of a sudden is all Catholic despite what she normally says of how she hates it. I'm going to stand by what I believe even if that means walking out.

Mood Crushing Friends

6:22

{If you speak three languages, you're trilingual. If you speak two languages, you're bilingual. If you speak one language, you're American. -Author Unknown}

So I've been a pretty good mood with spring break fast approaching. However, there is always that friend ready to bring you down. This "friend" is a constant B (I don't want to swear). Today, she's bragging about her spring break trip, a roadtrip in an RV. I told her that so far my only spring break plans are spending the weekend at Skylar's. She's like mine's still better. I told her that I'm sure both of ours will be great. She replies you really think yours will be better than mine? ha. I was done talking to her.

Then I posted a quote on facebook that you see at the top just like that. Then same friend writes that's a quote so wow you're plagarizing. I'm in like that wow really mood. I do believe that if you say author unknown you're giving credit, correct me if I'm wrong.

Why do people have to bring others down? It's a waste of time. There is no need to wallow in misery and to bring others with you! Let others be happy and wallow in your own misery.